Right now my head and heart are running dry. I feel exhausted in a bone-deep way. The words are eluding me.
But this kid? Well, he’s priceless. He can be serious, but usually, he’s not. The material keeps on coming.
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He didn’t fall asleep last night until 9:30, and for about half an hour before that lay in bed singing California Gurls to himself. Grace somehow can tune him out, which is a skill that I’m pretty sure she’s had to develop to survive. Then he got up at 5:30 and started talking. At 7:20, as we walked into breakfast, I think it’s possible that my normally impenetrably calm, Zen, mother-of-the-year facade cracked slightly. Responding to this, he stopped in his tracks. He sighed, resignedly, and said, “OK, Mummy, how about I give you a break from questions for a while?”
Sounds good, Whit.
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The other day Whit was short-circuiting from being tired and overwrought and generally falling apart. He was half-whining, half-crying, dragging his feet as we walked home from the camp bus. He finally burst out, “Mummy! I’m hungry! I’m tired! I am thirsty!” He sobbed. “I don’t know what I am, but I’m something!”
That’s a feeling I know.
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Apropos of absolutely nothing, on the long airplane ride home from Legoland, Whit elbowed me urgently.
“What?”
“Do you know what the problem with turtles is, Mummy?”
“What??”
“The problem is they have short legs so when they flip over onto their backs they can’t get back over.”
I tell you, spending an hour inside his head would be comedy.
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Last week, after dinner, when I was trying to wrestle Whit into the submission of sleep, he began agitating that he was hungry.
I glimpsed a pretzel from a couple of hours earlier on the floor. I scooped it up without his noticing (I thought) and handed it to him. “Here, eat this.”
We walked upstairs towards the bath. Through his mouthful, Whit asked me, “Did you just give me food from the floor?”
“Yes, Whitty, I did,” I sighed. “That’s just the kind of mum I am.”
“That’s the kind of awesome you are!” he exclaimed.