Tuesday night thoughtful

Am feeling quiet and contemplative tonight. Thinking about thanksgiving, and gratitude, and about rounding the curve to the end of another year. Thinking about those I love most and those whom I’m lucky to know love me, in all of my messy complexity.

She was so restless, liked so much to be alone. – Ellen Gilchrist, The Anna Papers

In the struggle lies the joy. – Maya Angelou

My life is like that – I don’t stop myself from going into the feeling, the emotion that pulls like gravity. Surely there are gentler courses, switchbacks, but for some reason I can’t bring myself to take them. – Louise Erdrich, The Blue Jay’s Dance

She could only stare at the absence inside herself for a few minutes at a time. It was like looking at the sun. – Carol Shields, The Stone Diaries

I wanted to feel the sheerness of space, to somehow reach what was empty and quiet, to hold what was right beyond my grasp. – Jane Hamilton, A Map of the World

A thinking woman sleeps with monsters. – Adrienne Rich

Still, something deeply sad had been born buried in me, stirring occasionally inside like a creature moving in sleep. – Lorrie Moore, Who Will Run the Frog Hospital

It is difficult to get the news from poems yet men die miserably every day for lack of what is found there. – William Carlos Williams

… in the small matters trust the mind, in the large ones the heart. – Sigmund Freud

random quotations, November 2008

Tonight, I tucked Whit in, prying his Legos from his hands (treasured Lego creation in bed = waking up desolate, surrounded by pieces, with Lego imprint on cheek) and kissing him before shutting the door.

I hear feet running to the door.

“Mummy!! Plug in my nightlight!”

“Okay, Whit.” I plug it in. “Now get back in bed. Remember what I told you, your eyes will get used to the dark.”

“No, Mummy, my eyes will not get huge.“

“Not huge. Used to the dark.”

“No. They don’t get hused to the dark.”

“Fine, so shut your eyes and see through your eyelids.”

“No, Mummy, I can’t do that.”

“Okay, so shut your eyes and see the bright colors and happy stories in your head.”

“Oh, okay, Mummy. Good idea.”

“Gracie, how is school going? Who are you playing with, who are you friends with these days?”
(making conversation, trying to follow up on areas of concern – seemed natural at the time!)

“Fine, Mummy. I have a new, bestest friend at school. The best.”

“Oh really, Grace? That’s great! Who?”

“The computer is my friend.”

A very cold Sunday!


Tabblo: A Very Cold Sunday

It is a very very cold Sunday here in Cambridge!

The morning started off with homemade muffins.  Then Whit built a “Star Wars airplane” out of Lego and Grace attempted some Early Readers.

… See my Tabblo>

story that makes my Saturday

Hilary called to report that Hannah was playing with two stuffed animals and named them (completely of her own accord) Sasha and Malia.

I love it.