Honest & Scrappy

Wow, so Aidan of Ivy League Insecurities surprised me today by bequeathing The Honest Scrap Award. Cool. My first bloggy award! It’s an award for “honesty and sincerity” in blogging and I could not be more touched. Because, just as Aidan says, I strive to be honest and sincere and know that this is something that is not always natural for me, who likes so much to please people and to be just who they want me to be. No. No more! This blog has been one place where I’ve been working out Who I Really Am in a way that I deeply hope is honest and sincere and yes, scrappy.

So, I learned the rules (and a lot else) from Aidan, who says I am supposed to share ten honest things about myself and then pass the award on to seven bloggers I think deserve it. My initial thought is it’s damn hard to think of ten interesting things about myself, but I will try.

1. I cry almost every day.
2. The things I like least about my physical self are: insomnia, cold sores, overly muscular legs
3. When I was learning to drive I almost drove my parents’ old Jeep into the ocean. My dad was shotgun. I was so scarred by that that I still can’t drive stick shift.
4. I am tone deaf.
5. I warm up really quickly to people but have a hard time being authentically vulnerable.
6. My godmothers are really important to me and I am profoundly honored to be godmother to three children now. I was really scared I would never have that special relationship with anyone.
7. I’m really uncomfortable about aging; getting old terrifies me.
8. I constantly count things in groups of eight (cars in a parking lot, window panes, ceiling tiles) and click them off on my teeth as I count (Aspergers, or OCD, anyone? also, teeth being worn down to nubs).
9. I wish I hadn’t gone to business school and know now I went out of inertia and a sense of what I “should” do rather than any real passion for it.
10. I still print out photographs and assemble old-school photo albums, creating several per year. I think my house will be overtaken by the photo albums.

And now my seven bloggers!

1. Mama at The Elmo Wallpaper

2. Kelly at kellydiels.com

3. Diana at Diana’s Notebook

4. Jenn at Breed ‘Em and Weep

5. Kate at sweet/salty

6. Launa at Wherever Launa Goes, There She Is

7. Jen at jengray.com